GOODBYE

this is the last post.

u killed your principle
u are to be blamed
this is a reminder...

p/s

bye rubenlovestoeat

Our History X

i knw tht u saw me weeping,
but i still owe u something,
its hard i cant even mention your name here..promises.promises

dear brother from a different mother,
been more than a month but i still have dejavus,
cant compare shooting at beer cans,
eating pork at Min Thein,
all the great times as we were 2,

how many times have v bailed our arses,
from prisons n Getafe's?
intoxicating ourselves not even remembering,
climbing up cemeteries and shouting their names out,
good times,

we sat n talked loads about life,
streotypes we r not... u loved teasing gurls..heheh i miss those times
remember when u punched me? bastard...
u did coke and said it was salt,
i smoked up and u said what the f***
u cried when i told u tht i like this gurl.. but i didnt do anything..for a reason

v could smell danger way before most fell into their tracks,
never wrong we were, how lucky,
remember when i told u tht shes going away,
u told me u will watch out for her..i owe u.
u did all those great things,

but why did u leave? so soon
how many have seen 5 million in a sack?
u had all but u gave back..

memories will still comeback
u told me to leave when i wanted to,
'this life aint for u blindman'..hehehe howd u knw...

i knw ur reading this,
i just miss those days,
in love i am now..but i dont forget what we preached..honesty
hugs from the blindman

p/s she calls me silly too..........

rukunegara

kepercayaan kepada tuhan
kesetiaan kepada raja dan negara
keluhuran perlembagaan
kedaulatan undang undang
kesopanan dan kesusilaan

wow i can actually remember...
my thoughts just ran kaput a while ago thinkin about prioritizing my job assignments until u heard the negaraku... yeah i m weird

kepercayaan kepada tuhan
i seriously cant relate to this though... we believe n, blieved? heheh.. this includes religion right? n this boils down to race...
why are people stick fighting n throwin racial remarks? why arent we united? why is tht people still being so fucking compulsive about their race being more superior than the others? fuck everyone dies in the end..
ur fuckin body might just rot or be burned..thts it.. how u lived life is more important than being judgmental on others.
just tolerate if the muslims hve to bang in the morning, u wake up early thts all..
just tolerate if the hindus break coconuts on the streets, u can eat it
just tolerate if the buddhist have long funeral possesions, see hw they respect the dead..
bloody hell Tolerate

kesetiaan kepada raja dan negara
how are we suppose to be loyal when the king does not make serious judgments?how are we suppose to respect him when he knows the country is in fuckin state/
he does nothing, how to show inclusiveness? how are we suppose to be united as a county when basic things such as understanding within Malaysians are separated? forcefully or by culture?u tell me.

keluhuran perlembagaan
the mightiness of the Constitution? the constitution does not even preach understanding, its screwed from a daily basis.

kedaulatan undang-undang
correct correct correct. its fucked since 1988. how to daulat?supposed to be a royal term but whats it now?this complements the kesetiaan kepada raja dan negara . so this is fucked to or fucking.u define it

Kesopanan dan kesusilaan
where m i supose to start on this. the prime minister sleeps during important meetings. he himself doesn respect how are we suppose to be sopan? the lrt seats for the old and disabled are meant for them not some young punks, how to be sopan? enforcement officers spit at prostitutes..fuck u they are humans too.. how to be sopan. one race condemning about the other..how to sopan?
tolerate la kawan....

this is how..
if ur hindu/buddhist and u dont consume beef: if a /event occurs, just dont eat the beef la
if they serve, ur other kawan makan
if your muslim and u knw tht ur non muslim fren is coming over for makan, just dont serve beef!!!!
simple kan

the is no superior race la... back then the british divided us with their divide and rule system, if we still believe in tht shit, u should fuck urself....
anak petani jadi menteri
anak penoreh getah jadi menteri
anak peniaga jadi menteri juga

so what? tolerate

the rukunegara should be abolished. we cant even unite the people around us, but we drive the unity propaganda,
think again,
its not how much wealth u gain, u will be remembered if u can bring two different individuals together..

semua matila end of it..semua.....

p/s u dont need to sell the rukunegara, its a bad product

from the parish of semabok

When in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes
I all alone beweep my outcast state,

And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,

And look upon myself, and curse my fate,

Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,

Featur’d like him, like him with friends possess’d,

Desiring this man’s art, and that man’s scope,

With what I most enjoy contented least;

Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,

Haply I think on thee,—and then my state,

Like to the lark at break of day arising

From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven’s gate;

For thy sweet love remember’d such wealth brings

That then I scorn to change my state with kings
-shakespeare-

p/s do they relate

51 cigarettes

berada disini memungkinkan saya melepas.. adakalanya berubah tetapi adakah ia pasti, tidak dikisahkan apa yang diluahkan oleh isi hati yang tidak dipedulikan..tapi setiap perkataan di sini, Luahan...

being sober is not an option, it is by choice that i choose, sometimes i am high sometimes i m sober, why create all this word? i pen down sometimes not indicating anything, sometimes its indicated, i prioritize, i try..
sometimes its being human, this is an excuse.. sometimes i feel like writing,. now i dont know
i like my mind, i named it Magnum Opus, its shut at times, but i try to overcome it

sandiwara,
prestasi, bukan kata yang diluahkan, ia seperti satu watak,
its by definition that we are blinded, i stick to certain things, i did, by definition
abide by the rules,
why
white and black

situasi ini dikatakan menarik perhatian,
bagai, inspirasi
elok kalau kita berubah,
tapi menjadi siapa? karenah yang diibaratkan sempurna?
but thats not you..


p/s i think to much, what i miss more than reading, the rubenesque lower body

INDIAN Dilemma Part 4

rabies and germs, sorry for the long awaited main course... i just realized that my convocation is tomorrow....
just a reminder dont buy me flowers..thank you

main course
after a 'decent' meal at night with the fellow excited first year indian frenz we are alwiz instructed to go back to our rooms... wow arent they understanding..they instruct us to go back to our room so that we can revise and study for our classes or tutorials the next day...

well as u try to read the 3rd page of your notes(well thank the chinese frenz, they have a buddy system where the freshman will get the notes from the seniors!!!!) u will get a sms.
you are invited to participate in the indian orientation in the following room (i shall not disclose the room)

so we the excited first year indian male student will report ourselves to the 'room', it has a name, direct translation means, the butcher shop. u will have a fat mother fucker who will not be able to see his pea sized penis ( yes we all have seen it, we were told to see it)..
here comes the main course

no pants allowed
yeah read the title, we the excited first years will have to show off our lovely J Lo arses and Timbuktu dicks. the science faculty seniors who are soo fucking good in their studies will come and inspect our foreskins and also our 'sizes'. some made it some didnt..

we were then told to perform some show for the very curious seniors who would like to watch some gay porno without penetration. we would have to be naked and sometimes smell the sweat of our fellow excited first year indian friends. we have gangbangs and also some cumming fest which some of us loose. so u will get some form of milo panas with french oil for your dick to cum.. well i dont know howd tht work!!! till today
hmmm those readers please wipe up after reading yea..thank you


maid of horror
after the shows in the room, some of us who can act like me will escape to the rooms to sleep of get drunk. yeha i like to drink. some unlucky fellas will have to wash up to 9 pail of clothes. some of the first years will pee in their seniors pails after washing their clothes. well u deserve it lah!!!
these seniors will skip their classes for the whole duration of the ragging!!!!

i aint kidding you, they sacrifice their time and class to orientate us. i was very touched when i heard of this. i seriously would not do it..
ehhehe duh, thats why they finish studying a 3 year course in 5 years!!!!!
dont u get the maths u fools....

well this cycle goes on and on.. some of us rebel ..yeah we did but due to some promises we still keep on going. whatever i have written here is true and i will take responsible for what i have written.

some of the excited first year reported these incidents to the higher authority and guess what the report was sent back to the residential college!!!!
so to whom do we complain too!!!?

U

u just stood there
askin,
for a particular good reason,
i didnt ask for a change, just a kiss..
memories;

u just came into my thoughts,
i asked,
for a particular good reason
u said u were fine, i accepted
memories;

u came that nite,
physically....
for a particular good reason
i couldnt let u go this time,
so i kissed....

p/s gua miss lu